The Past Doesn't Forget...

Have you ever screwed up so bad in life you begin to think no one will forget? That one catastrophe will forever mar your existence?

I didn't think I could be ruined with one sin --no matter how bad it was.

Until today.

Today i learned that the past could forgive but it never forgets...

I might lose a job for getting sick, that's all really. This whole drama just moved a macroscopic expanse. I guess, what i know now, doesn't just apply to this job I'm trying to get.

I think i fairly understand that what we decide on today will make or break us someday and that though battlescars are impressive proofs of our fought glory, they are indications too that we have been weak.

I will not claim perfection for i did not earn at least any close semblance to it.

In fact, i was one of those who loved the mess that i was.

But then, i grew to realize that not everyone can tolerate a mess. And I'm just unlucky that my boss is one of them.

If i get this job, then great, maybe I can redeem myself. If not, then we'll see..

I can always go to the junkyard after, hehehe..