The Subaru Episode

So Murray finally got the new window for his car. Don't even get me started - it crushed my heart when I heard what happened because I knew how much he loved the new car..

Like most things that got better.. It'd be nice to go for a drive with him in it.. We'll get our turn, we will.. There is still a long road leading to that but we will get there..

Sometimes I worry that many things will go wrong.. But like Domino Harvey would say, there's always a 50-50 chance of things either going well or not.. I'm taking a side and that's for things to go well.. At this point, it's your only choice..

I hope he's happier...

It Gets Better

There are days when you just feel like standing in the middle of a busy road, waiting for a speeding truck to hit you.

These are days when your boss is calling you at three in the morning, just when you've finally fallen asleep after a 2-hour bout with nausea, to tell you that you need to get your butt to work for a 4-hour methodology training..

These are days when you can graze the floor of your now-roomy purse because you're running out of money.. Days when you stare at the mirror and see the dark half moons under your eyes and the dark brown lump that is your hair.. Days when you just want to sleep but your mother walks in to talk about the floor plan for the bathroom you are financing to get renovated.. Days when you wake up starving from a 2-hour sleep only to find there is no food in the fridge.. Days when you feel like being cheered up and you check your messenger contact list only to find your boyfriend's not online...

So yeah, these days happened one after another the past week and I had the slightest temptation to pause while crossing the street just to see if a truck will come speeding by... But I'm glad I didn't..

I'm glad that i stuck it out holding on to very little hope that it will get better...

Simply because I know it will get better.. It always does.. = P