The Truth About Love

Love is a fool's sanity and a sane man's foolishness.

Oh yeah, it's complicated alright.

Leaving someone because you love them too much, not saying it out loud when it feels like bursting out of you, hoping when you know there is nothing there to hope for, falling when all you wanted to do was fight against it.

I told myself once that I will always have the upperhand on love --that it was the only way to beat it, that to have it control me will be the end of my sanity.

But love is like a force of nature --unpredictable, unstoppable and most of all, it destroys only to always start something new.

I have been destroyed --so many times I'm amazed at the endurance of my heart muscles. But always, all the time, something new begins in me.

I love often and many, but rarely do I make it a lifetime.

The last time I did, I walked out when I wanted to stay, I let go when I wanted to hold on. Because love as preached in the Bible, is woven along the same thread of prudence, faith, sacrifice and selflessness that in deciding to love, you agree to all its terms and that one day, when it asks of you, you can't refuse.

Yes, letting go seared me a great deal. Lifetimes are the hardest to let go, you know?

But salvation came to me incredibly quick.

So here I go again beginning another lifetime, literally and figuratively.

I thought you can only go down this road once but no, the truth about love is that you can do it over and over again, assured in the knowledge that though you'll slip and sprain an ankle, you will always find people who will stop by and pick you up and carry you along.

And yes, the losing and finding over and over again can be crazy and frightening, but it's the only way there is, for you can never lose what was never yours and like most things on earth, we will always lose what we have --beauty, wealth, people we love.

The good thing about it is the knowledge of the many we loved and hoped in.

That life had been full because we took the chance everytime it presented itself to us.

The truth about love is that we will always think we have it all figured out, only to realize that we actually don't.

The only thing we can do, is never miss a chance to keep trying and eventually fiinding it out.